I’ve struggled for years with the decision whether to blog or not, wondering a) if I had the TIME to do it, b) how to categorize it – I didn’t want to limit my subject matter to one focused area as “How to Blog” articles suggest, c) if I could handle the criticism, but mostly d) why I would be doing it.
I used to write articles for our home schooling newsletter, which I believe really ministered to that segment of society, however personal circumstances created a decade long writer’s block. My writing is a tool God has given me, but I need His inspiration for what and how to write. I’m convinced He put that gift up on the shelf out of my reach for these past years because I had other areas I needed to resolve. Just a couple of years ago, I got a few closely-placed signs that my writing might be called back into practice and suddenly the ideas started flowing again. Still, I had to do some soul searching on the above questions.
Finding the time will resolve itself. If I’m inspired, I will make the time to write. Today, I think I’ve resolved the categorizing issue. I am a dance-to-the-beat-of-my-own-drum kind of person – always have been. Rules can be useful, but I’m not averse to breaking them. The thought of dealing with criticism so publicly is still a bit daunting, but I trust I will grow thicker skin if need be. But the real question I’ve been chewing on is “Why”.
What are the reasons I feel led to blog? What makes me feel like the world needs to hear what runs through my mind? Am I seeking self-gratification? Honestly, I do love hearing when people like what I’ve written, but this is not a good reason to start littering people’s lives with words. Yet another question – am I doing this in the hopes of making money from it? Well, money is a good motivator. Still, that’s the wrong motivator in this case. What I’ve come to realize is that I’ve got things to share that I think can bless those who read it. One day during a sermon, our pastor used the phrase “bless and build” and it went straight to my heart. Thinking those words so succinctly summarized what I was hoping to do with my blog, I realized that I’d just been given the name I needed. So that is my purpose – to bless my readers and to build them up with encouragement as they journey through life.
I will fight the little voice that keeps telling me it is arrogant to assume people will want to read what I think. I will write as I am inspired and we’ll see if it falls into a neat categorical focus. I will share ideas about womanhood, motherhood and sisterhood. My life experiences have taken me down roads in parenting, creating, reading, cooking, event organizing, and home schooling. I have walked through years of depression, discovered beauty about life as a “messie”, struggled through learning to forgive, learned the value of relationships and found out about the different ways men and women think. I have known the good, the bad and the ugly of perfectionism, legalism and fanaticism. I have raised five sons who have in turn raised me to new levels of understanding and maturity. I have walked with my husband through the challenges and rewards of a 30+ year marriage. All these subjects will no doubt turn up in my writing. I look forward to sharing with and hearing from my readers. My hope is that we will mutually bless and build one another through our communication here.